Clearing My Head

Yesterday was Tuesday, which for those of you that don't know means grocery shopping day for Mike + I, so after he gets off work around 4:30 I drive to the base to meet him in order to knock out the shopping list faster.

I had gotten home a little early from my morning job so I laid down for a bit to try and sleep (Mike and I didn't get a lot of sleep the previous night due to us raiding, ugh) because we were going to be raiding again that night. However, my neck and left shoulder have been killing me so after giving up trying to get comfortable and nearly crying from how bad it hurt i just gave up, got up and drove to the base.

Due to my shoulder bothering me I was already in a bad mood and it seems every little thing was bugging me once we started shopping, his normal "I don't care, or doesn't matter to me" when I would ask what he wanted for lunches or what he wanted for dinner. Those responses drive me crazy and being in a bad mood just made it so much worse.

Once we finished grocery shopping I started dinner while he put away the grocery's, cooking dinner with one arm/hand is rather difficult... never really tried to before lol. So after making a couple messes, using way more pots and putting much more effort into dinner then I wanted to I was now in an even WORSE mood cause my shoulder was killing me. So I'm getting more grouchy and snitty and I'm pissed cause Mikes making a mess and dripping hot dog juice on the floor and cutting the hotdog pieces way to big and just EVERYTHING was bothering me so I snapped and said some catty things I know I shouldn't have and it turned into a 5 minute fight which led to us slamming stuff, ignoring one another, not talking over dinner and so on.

Well lets just say the evening finally got better (I hate that WoW is the only thing that cheers my husband up) and we went to bed around 11:30. Around 12:45-1am My should started throbbing and I couldn't sleep cause of it so I moved to the sofa, at home point Mike wakes up and realizes I'm not in bed and comes out looking for me only to find me asleep on the sofa, instead of leaving me alone and waiting till morning to find out what was wrong he wakes me up, I think I said something about my shoulder hurting and fell back asleep cause the conversation was very short. So when I wake up today (right now) Mike is in a terrible mood cause he didn't sleep well (because I wasn't in bed) and I'm trying to be helpful and seems everything I try to do to help only makes it worse...I'm sorry my shoulder hurt and I couldn't sleep so I moved to the sofa so I would feel better? Or I'm sorry I didn't just deal with it in order for you to sleep well?? Really wish we had couples counseling today... I think I might print out my blog posts that way I remember things that have happened since our last appointment...ugh, I ALMOST wish he had deployed so we could have spent some time apart... maybe things would have been easier that way.

I Seriously Need a Moment

So really this is a nothing post that I feel like I just need to write in order to vent properly, idk sooooo here we go.

So for starters... Mike and I have tried SO hard to keep the carpet in our apartment spotless, however two dogs, a cat, bunches of his male friends and A LOT of spilled candle wax later and we are pretty much F***ed. So this means that we may not be moving into a house come next July, the apartment complex after 5 years trashes the old carpet and replaces it for free.... so if we can stay in this apartment for at least another year we won't have to pay a huge amount of money for this carpet to be fixed. This is a small problem on my mind not huge.

Second thing... Christmas.... now most people LOVE Christmas and the holidays and baking and so on and so on... not me. I don't because it reminds me that i'm a SERVER and have to work almost every holiday which means, once again, I will not be spending Christmas Eve, New Years Eve, or Halloween with my husband... nice. On top of this the in-laws are coming (actually looking forward to that but that's just more stress) and I STILL haven't heard weather or not MY parents are coming... *pulls out hair*.

Third, couples counseling is going well for Mike and I but I still feel like things aren't 100% back to normal... I wonder some days if there will ever be a 'normal' again...at least like it used to be? I'm thinking about taking up my own counselor in order to deal with my feelings separately as well as with Mike... I think it might be more helpful.

Next, is work....HATE my job, HATE my co-workers and HATE OB!!!! SO ready to be outta that place...

Another thing, Mikes orders expire next July so there is a possibility that he might get NEW orders elsewhere... that would be great, we could leave this little town (there is nothing to do here!! But that's the next paragraph) and finally (maybe) move to an actual city. However, this means I can't start school yet.. there is no point. Even if I start my vet degree online if I can't finish my clinical hours before July of next year there is the possibility of moving and having to start all over again, what would the point in that be??

Now to continue on what i mentioned above, there is nothing to do here... at ALL!! One of Mike and my friends got arrested for drag racing and spent most of the night in jail (till he got bailed) and the other for a stripe taken away because of the event... another friend of ours thought it a good idea to get food after he had had a few drinks after party hopping and made the decision to drive to get food (cause there is never anyone on the roads that late) and ended up with a DUI..... THEN Mike and I were out for a ride with a local sports-bike club and ran into a road block in the small town of Buffalo gap.... the local cops pulled about 15 of us over for a 'noise complaint, reckless driving, and causing a nuisance'. No one got arrested and no on got tickets, all got warnings... however this leads me to my point.... there is NOTHING to do which seems to be leading to people getting in trouble with the law or making dumb/bad decisions based solely out of boredom and sheer lack of things to do to keep us occupied. Any ideas on law abiding, safe and non reckless things to do?

Oh and one last thing before I stop ranting... Mike and I would like to start thinking/prepping for kids... however until I have my degree I don't think it the best idea, but I can't get my degree until I'm sure we aren't moving in July, and I can't be fully sure we aren't moving in July and I know we can't till we have a larger place to live like a house or town home, which we can't do yet because of the carpet.... its like this revolving door effect.... which came first the chicken or the egg?? idk what to do or where to start... I'm so stressed out these days with my two jobs and the house always looking like a bomb went off....and i seem to be unable to find the motivation to clean on my ONE day off from both jobs because I'm normally just to freakin tired or want to spend a small amount of time with my husband...

What to do, what to do...

Holiday Season Again!

It's starting to actually feel like fall outside (a little). The weather recently in Abilene, TX has hovered in the 70's-mid-80's over the last two weeks and has been an amazing change of scenery. The normal temp is mid 90's but due to a freak cold front we have had some wonderfully cool days, thank goodness for that.

Few days ago I went out and picked up some art supply's and made a fall wreath, my mother and sister would be so proud. It actually turned out looking really nice (considering I didn't have a hot glue gun to use and had to substitute using super glue, I think I did rather well) considering that all supplies included I made the wreath for under $10, I feel like I did a pretty darn good job.

Today I am making O'Henry Bars, Tuxedo brownies, Sugar Cookies and maybe something else... haven't quite decided yet. I am in a cooking mood today for whatever reason, I think it's the cool weather and and realizing its mid October that's putting me in the 'holiday mood'.

This is the wreath that I made (for under $10) without any hot glue (PAIN!!)... just super glue, a little floral tape and some luck!!!

My amazing (made from scratch) Tuxedo Brownies! I added my own personal touch by chopping up chocolate chips  and sprinkling the shavings over the tops, sooo yummy. Can't wait to make more of these, I think I might make some mini ones for Halloween!

Very late update

    I know it's been a couple months since my last update but I find myself in the office with nothing to do, for once. The holidays are finally almost over and I can finally give a sigh of relief. Thanksgiving was quite a hand full with two dogs underfoot trying to trip me up as to get some turkey and whatever else I might have been carrying. The turkey was made was if I remember correctly 11 pounds and I must say I did quiet a nice job for a first try. I did however miss on of the bags that had the head of the turkey in it soooo that got cooked too. Thankfully nothing exploded or leaked so the turkey was fine to eat. After a wonderful mid-day Thanksgiving feast we just laid around, played some video games and took a very nice long nap. About 6:30 or so we packed up some apple pie and headed out the door to one of Mikes commanding officers house, however as we were leaving the parking lot we noticed the clutch was giving to easy so we stopped, checked the fluid and sure enough somewhere along the line we'd sprung a leak. So we ended up not going much of anywhere that evening, spec for more turkey, video games and an early bed time. A few days after Thanksgiving we went and picked out our Christmas tree, then we decorated it I believe it was the weekend after that.

Christmas Eve I had to work...I saw this coming thankfully so Mike and I didn't make any plans. We ended up closing early so I got home in time to spend a little of Christmas Eve with Mike. Christmas morning was a little chaotic with the dogs wanting to trip everything rapped to shreds. The dogs opened their gifts first (in order to keep them busy and away from ours once they were finished) and Mike and myself last. Mike bought me a Nikon 3100 digital camera, good LORD is this thing huge. The pixel resolution blows my mind, you can zoom in on a picture up to x24 and it looks just as clear as zoomed out...unbelievable. I bought Mike a 4 bottle shot dispenser since he's been eyeballing one for a while, a couple movies and some air force double shot glasses he wanted. All and all our large Christmas gift was mutual and the rest we kept small, not trying to over do it for our first Christmas.

Had to work New Years Eve (saw this coming too) so we spent the 30mins before the ball dropped at a local bar right next to my work, we literally just ran over there to have a quick drink and watch the ball drop before heading home. Other than that, New Years Eve was spent at home away from the crazy drivers.

My 21st Birthday was on January 9th and I somehow managed to take off the whole weekend as to insure IF I got a hang over id be able to sleep as long as I wanted lol. Spent most of the morning and early afternoon cleaning the house and making Cello shots in prep for our friends coming over, also of course made a liquor run as to insure nobody would be driving once they started drinking, didn't want anyone needing anything. Went to Outback for dinner on the 8th in order to get food in our stomachs before we started drinking, didn't think it a wise idea to drink on an empty stomach. Mike bought us a beer pong table for my birthday, which has turned out to be a well loved and well used item in our house. People didn't really start showing up till around 10:30-11 because most of my friends were coming from work. Over all we had about 9 people at the house and I ended up not being the one to get sick, my friend Mary isn't a big drinker and she didn't pay to much attention to how much she had had so...I ended up spending a good 2 hours in the bathroom with her at around 5am...Happy Birthday to me lol Had a couple of my girlfriends stay over as not to have people drive home and my house was surprisingly not a mess when I got up the next afternoon lol My friends are pretty respectful like that.

It's obviously Feb. 7th and I should be starting school in just over a week...however Mike and I have decided for me to take one more semester off before returning to school. We have the money put aside for me to attend classes this semester but think if financially unwise with all the bills we currently have. Do to the fact that I received about $900 less in my return this past period we were unable to pay off some of the debt in order for me to get back into school. After our tax return this year we'll have paid off lot more and I'll be able to get back to school full time in the fall. Also instead of me attending an online university I'll be able to attend a local college which will be nice, wasn't really looking forward to all my classes being online.

Aside from some upcoming medical stuff their isn't anything that important else to say. Our dogs are going steer-crazy because of all the snow we've had over the last week, taking them outside is a job for me and my husband so I can't let them out to play till he gets home. Mike and I were shocked that 6 inches of snow could close a base for 4 days, then again down here they don't have salt or snow plows so by the end of the first snow day everything was a gleaming sheet of ice. However the snow is finally melting and now its all mud and water...the dogs love it even more lol my carpet looks like someone decided to have a mud fight in the house....I'm still not sure how my bed and sofa managed to avoid such a fate.

I will post pictures later of the holidays and events above mentioned, that way everybody can keep in touch. Much love to all!!! PS- Mike was awarded a Coin by the Commander & CEM for outstanding Excellence and Performance to the 7th Mission Support Group. He also received a comp day ( a day off without using leave) for their gratitude towards his wonderful work.

And so it begings

In light of my sisters wedding (now past) my husband and I decided to postpone trying to plan are wedding till the craziness of hers had passed. Now with hers come and gone we have begun the process of wedding planning.

First up is the wedding party:

Best man: Grover Madison
Best man: Dominic Snowdon
Grooms men: Joshua Cameron
Grooms men: Rick Gray

Maid of Honor: Sarah Montoya
Maid of Honor: Marry
Bridesmaid: Kelly Gray
Bridesmaid: Morgan Stein
Jr. Bridesmaid: Mackenzie Llewellyn

Now that the wedding party is assembled its Church hunting time!! I have come across several absolutely beautiful churches in the Baltimore area, only problem is since most of them are old catholic churches they have old fashion rules about if you are not catholic you cannot use them for a wedding!! How silly is that!? So we are slowly whittling out old churches and moving to more modern churches…ugh.

Only GOOD news, I found my wedding dress!!! 2 hours and 5 dresses later we had a winner!!!

 It was that moment they always told you about, how you have that WOW factor. I walked out of that dressing room, stepped up onto that little pedestal and just went....wow..... this is it!

 Adjusting a little..

 The gal that was helping me find my dress had originally told me that this dress wouldn't look good with that sash but i insisted we try, it looked absolutely amazing...just stunning.

I am in love with this train...absolutely love the bead work and embroidery.

The veil is trimmed in red and has some red embroidery in it, so so beautiful.

The 3 layers on the bottom of the dress were more girly then i had originally thought id want to go, but with all the bead work it looked stunning.

The big day!!!

So i recently got married to my friend Mike who I've known for 9 years. He and I used to go to karate together way back in the day, so we basically grew up together. After a very short time of dating and talking things over we decided the hell with it all and got married. We already knew we were a good fit for each other and with him moving to Texas in just under a month it was the best solution to all the problems. After making sure my school was arranged, my work and finances we threw together a small but nice wedding! Besides a couple very nasty last minute changes to the days events and decor it went off without a hitch!

Here are the pictures:

Update: Way over due!

I promised months ago to post NEW pictures of my apartment so here they are. (NOTE: These are NOT the most recent seeing as i took these about two months ago).

This is my new sofa! Isn't it nice?! It's sooo comfortable... though Patches doesn't think so, she likes my bed better lol

Top of my closet, kinda a low ceiling but hey *shrugs* it works lol

Closet...

Corner of my room, new TV!

Other corner, refurbished glass table and antique mirror that i salvaged, new home for snow globes.

Like the posters?? I do!

Full view of the back half of my room

middle of my room, lots of books^_^ <3 them

Sofa and other new poster

Front half of my room, does that blue tape remind you of anything...hmmm (thinks back to first posts of apartment renovations) Yes folks those walls are STILL not painted. Soon as school is out for the semester and it warms up you had better believe we will have some serious painting going on lol

Bed!!! I have new pillows now (those are the old ones) and i have new bed sheets, they are aqua blue and the pillows are king size!

And finally my work space, old antique desk that i refurbished and fixed up. New brass, new paint, and a fresh sealant.