So really this is a nothing post that I feel like I just need to write in order to vent properly, idk sooooo here we go.
So for starters... Mike and I have tried SO hard to keep the carpet in our apartment spotless, however two dogs, a cat, bunches of his male friends and A LOT of spilled candle wax later and we are pretty much F***ed. So this means that we may not be moving into a house come next July, the apartment complex after 5 years trashes the old carpet and replaces it for free.... so if we can stay in this apartment for at least another year we won't have to pay a huge amount of money for this carpet to be fixed. This is a small problem on my mind not huge.
Second thing... Christmas.... now most people LOVE Christmas and the holidays and baking and so on and so on... not me. I don't because it reminds me that i'm a SERVER and have to work almost every holiday which means, once again, I will not be spending Christmas Eve, New Years Eve, or Halloween with my husband... nice. On top of this the in-laws are coming (actually looking forward to that but that's just more stress) and I STILL haven't heard weather or not MY parents are coming... *pulls out hair*.
Third, couples counseling is going well for Mike and I but I still feel like things aren't 100% back to normal... I wonder some days if there will ever be a 'normal' again...at least like it used to be? I'm thinking about taking up my own counselor in order to deal with my feelings separately as well as with Mike... I think it might be more helpful.
Next, is work....HATE my job, HATE my co-workers and HATE OB!!!! SO ready to be outta that place...
Another thing, Mikes orders expire next July so there is a possibility that he might get NEW orders elsewhere... that would be great, we could leave this little town (there is nothing to do here!! But that's the next paragraph) and finally (maybe) move to an actual city. However, this means I can't start school yet.. there is no point. Even if I start my vet degree online if I can't finish my clinical hours before July of next year there is the possibility of moving and having to start all over again, what would the point in that be??
Now to continue on what i mentioned above, there is nothing to do here... at ALL!! One of Mike and my friends got arrested for drag racing and spent most of the night in jail (till he got bailed) and the other for a stripe taken away because of the event... another friend of ours thought it a good idea to get food after he had had a few drinks after party hopping and made the decision to drive to get food (cause there is never anyone on the roads that late) and ended up with a DUI..... THEN Mike and I were out for a ride with a local sports-bike club and ran into a road block in the small town of Buffalo gap.... the local cops pulled about 15 of us over for a 'noise complaint, reckless driving, and causing a nuisance'. No one got arrested and no on got tickets, all got warnings... however this leads me to my point.... there is NOTHING to do which seems to be leading to people getting in trouble with the law or making dumb/bad decisions based solely out of boredom and sheer lack of things to do to keep us occupied. Any ideas on law abiding, safe and non reckless things to do?
Oh and one last thing before I stop ranting... Mike and I would like to start thinking/prepping for kids... however until I have my degree I don't think it the best idea, but I can't get my degree until I'm sure we aren't moving in July, and I can't be fully sure we aren't moving in July and I know we can't till we have a larger place to live like a house or town home, which we can't do yet because of the carpet.... its like this revolving door effect.... which came first the chicken or the egg?? idk what to do or where to start... I'm so stressed out these days with my two jobs and the house always looking like a bomb went off....and i seem to be unable to find the motivation to clean on my ONE day off from both jobs because I'm normally just to freakin tired or want to spend a small amount of time with my husband...
What to do, what to do...
So for starters... Mike and I have tried SO hard to keep the carpet in our apartment spotless, however two dogs, a cat, bunches of his male friends and A LOT of spilled candle wax later and we are pretty much F***ed. So this means that we may not be moving into a house come next July, the apartment complex after 5 years trashes the old carpet and replaces it for free.... so if we can stay in this apartment for at least another year we won't have to pay a huge amount of money for this carpet to be fixed. This is a small problem on my mind not huge.
Second thing... Christmas.... now most people LOVE Christmas and the holidays and baking and so on and so on... not me. I don't because it reminds me that i'm a SERVER and have to work almost every holiday which means, once again, I will not be spending Christmas Eve, New Years Eve, or Halloween with my husband... nice. On top of this the in-laws are coming (actually looking forward to that but that's just more stress) and I STILL haven't heard weather or not MY parents are coming... *pulls out hair*.
Third, couples counseling is going well for Mike and I but I still feel like things aren't 100% back to normal... I wonder some days if there will ever be a 'normal' again...at least like it used to be? I'm thinking about taking up my own counselor in order to deal with my feelings separately as well as with Mike... I think it might be more helpful.
Next, is work....HATE my job, HATE my co-workers and HATE OB!!!! SO ready to be outta that place...
Another thing, Mikes orders expire next July so there is a possibility that he might get NEW orders elsewhere... that would be great, we could leave this little town (there is nothing to do here!! But that's the next paragraph) and finally (maybe) move to an actual city. However, this means I can't start school yet.. there is no point. Even if I start my vet degree online if I can't finish my clinical hours before July of next year there is the possibility of moving and having to start all over again, what would the point in that be??
Now to continue on what i mentioned above, there is nothing to do here... at ALL!! One of Mike and my friends got arrested for drag racing and spent most of the night in jail (till he got bailed) and the other for a stripe taken away because of the event... another friend of ours thought it a good idea to get food after he had had a few drinks after party hopping and made the decision to drive to get food (cause there is never anyone on the roads that late) and ended up with a DUI..... THEN Mike and I were out for a ride with a local sports-bike club and ran into a road block in the small town of Buffalo gap.... the local cops pulled about 15 of us over for a 'noise complaint, reckless driving, and causing a nuisance'. No one got arrested and no on got tickets, all got warnings... however this leads me to my point.... there is NOTHING to do which seems to be leading to people getting in trouble with the law or making dumb/bad decisions based solely out of boredom and sheer lack of things to do to keep us occupied. Any ideas on law abiding, safe and non reckless things to do?
Oh and one last thing before I stop ranting... Mike and I would like to start thinking/prepping for kids... however until I have my degree I don't think it the best idea, but I can't get my degree until I'm sure we aren't moving in July, and I can't be fully sure we aren't moving in July and I know we can't till we have a larger place to live like a house or town home, which we can't do yet because of the carpet.... its like this revolving door effect.... which came first the chicken or the egg?? idk what to do or where to start... I'm so stressed out these days with my two jobs and the house always looking like a bomb went off....and i seem to be unable to find the motivation to clean on my ONE day off from both jobs because I'm normally just to freakin tired or want to spend a small amount of time with my husband...
What to do, what to do...
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