Yesterday was Tuesday, which for those of you that don't know means grocery shopping day for Mike + I, so after he gets off work around 4:30 I drive to the base to meet him in order to knock out the shopping list faster.
I had gotten home a little early from my morning job so I laid down for a bit to try and sleep (Mike and I didn't get a lot of sleep the previous night due to us raiding, ugh) because we were going to be raiding again that night. However, my neck and left shoulder have been killing me so after giving up trying to get comfortable and nearly crying from how bad it hurt i just gave up, got up and drove to the base.
Due to my shoulder bothering me I was already in a bad mood and it seems every little thing was bugging me once we started shopping, his normal "I don't care, or doesn't matter to me" when I would ask what he wanted for lunches or what he wanted for dinner. Those responses drive me crazy and being in a bad mood just made it so much worse.
Once we finished grocery shopping I started dinner while he put away the grocery's, cooking dinner with one arm/hand is rather difficult... never really tried to before lol. So after making a couple messes, using way more pots and putting much more effort into dinner then I wanted to I was now in an even WORSE mood cause my shoulder was killing me. So I'm getting more grouchy and snitty and I'm pissed cause Mikes making a mess and dripping hot dog juice on the floor and cutting the hotdog pieces way to big and just EVERYTHING was bothering me so I snapped and said some catty things I know I shouldn't have and it turned into a 5 minute fight which led to us slamming stuff, ignoring one another, not talking over dinner and so on.
Well lets just say the evening finally got better (I hate that WoW is the only thing that cheers my husband up) and we went to bed around 11:30. Around 12:45-1am My should started throbbing and I couldn't sleep cause of it so I moved to the sofa, at home point Mike wakes up and realizes I'm not in bed and comes out looking for me only to find me asleep on the sofa, instead of leaving me alone and waiting till morning to find out what was wrong he wakes me up, I think I said something about my shoulder hurting and fell back asleep cause the conversation was very short. So when I wake up today (right now) Mike is in a terrible mood cause he didn't sleep well (because I wasn't in bed) and I'm trying to be helpful and seems everything I try to do to help only makes it worse...I'm sorry my shoulder hurt and I couldn't sleep so I moved to the sofa so I would feel better? Or I'm sorry I didn't just deal with it in order for you to sleep well?? Really wish we had couples counseling today... I think I might print out my blog posts that way I remember things that have happened since our last appointment...ugh, I ALMOST wish he had deployed so we could have spent some time apart... maybe things would have been easier that way.
I had gotten home a little early from my morning job so I laid down for a bit to try and sleep (Mike and I didn't get a lot of sleep the previous night due to us raiding, ugh) because we were going to be raiding again that night. However, my neck and left shoulder have been killing me so after giving up trying to get comfortable and nearly crying from how bad it hurt i just gave up, got up and drove to the base.
Due to my shoulder bothering me I was already in a bad mood and it seems every little thing was bugging me once we started shopping, his normal "I don't care, or doesn't matter to me" when I would ask what he wanted for lunches or what he wanted for dinner. Those responses drive me crazy and being in a bad mood just made it so much worse.
Once we finished grocery shopping I started dinner while he put away the grocery's, cooking dinner with one arm/hand is rather difficult... never really tried to before lol. So after making a couple messes, using way more pots and putting much more effort into dinner then I wanted to I was now in an even WORSE mood cause my shoulder was killing me. So I'm getting more grouchy and snitty and I'm pissed cause Mikes making a mess and dripping hot dog juice on the floor and cutting the hotdog pieces way to big and just EVERYTHING was bothering me so I snapped and said some catty things I know I shouldn't have and it turned into a 5 minute fight which led to us slamming stuff, ignoring one another, not talking over dinner and so on.
Well lets just say the evening finally got better (I hate that WoW is the only thing that cheers my husband up) and we went to bed around 11:30. Around 12:45-1am My should started throbbing and I couldn't sleep cause of it so I moved to the sofa, at home point Mike wakes up and realizes I'm not in bed and comes out looking for me only to find me asleep on the sofa, instead of leaving me alone and waiting till morning to find out what was wrong he wakes me up, I think I said something about my shoulder hurting and fell back asleep cause the conversation was very short. So when I wake up today (right now) Mike is in a terrible mood cause he didn't sleep well (because I wasn't in bed) and I'm trying to be helpful and seems everything I try to do to help only makes it worse...I'm sorry my shoulder hurt and I couldn't sleep so I moved to the sofa so I would feel better? Or I'm sorry I didn't just deal with it in order for you to sleep well?? Really wish we had couples counseling today... I think I might print out my blog posts that way I remember things that have happened since our last appointment...ugh, I ALMOST wish he had deployed so we could have spent some time apart... maybe things would have been easier that way.
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